Ok, so I talk to myself. No big deal.

I don't mean crazy lady walking around town rambling about shit like I’m a crazy person talking to myself. (but I do that as well LOL!)  

I mean, there’s this voice that says stuff to me all the time, it’s in my head or mind or somewhere up there, but it is definitely telling me what to do and how to do it. Also it has big opinions about who I am, how I look and what I wear, and tells me exactly what I am going to achieve in my life. It is BOSSY as fuck!

Do you know what voice I’m talking about? Do you have it too?

PHEW!!!! Thank god it’s not just me!

Now what does the voice say to you? Is It a jerk or is it your biggest cheerleader?

See there was a time when the voice would tell me I was fat, that I needed to lose a little more weight to look good- THANKS! that really fueled my eating disorder and drug use. It would say that I was damaged, destroyed by the shit that happened to me in my life and that no one would ever love me. It used to say that I was just some little, weak girl who was born in a trailer park, deserved it when I got the shit beaten out of me and there was no fucking way I was ever going to make it in this world…I just wasn’t that important to anyone. Oh, and the voice said that everyone in the world felt exactly the same way about me.

Just about every woman I’ve ever talked to has this voice. It’s not nice, It’s not fucking helpful and guess what??? It’s not actually your voice. Your real true self might be foul mouthed and bossy but it’s your best friend and biggest cheerleader. It gets its rocks off by pushing you to love yourself more, to succeed bigger and to use your power to help others do the same. What about that fucked up, asshole voice you ask? It is nothing but a sad lonely monster and its time for it to die.

Look I know you’ve been getting chased around by this thing for damn near all your life, but this shit ends now. Remember all that power you found out you have? It is gonna come in handy because this is the fight of your life. Once you destroy all credibility of that pathetic shitty voice, take away it’s power, and put its ass to bed, we can start to find out where the hell that cheerleader is hiding- because she was scared to death of that jerk too.

Wanna know how to do this? Let me break it down for you.

#1 What does it look like? How can you squash something you can’t see? Mine was 10ft tall, green, had big fangs and was trying like hell to fucking kill me.

#2 Stock up on ammunition- your good qualities, great stuff you’ve done, positive physical attributes- all that amazing stuff about you. Start making a list of anything you can use against the monster, include those TROPHIES!!!

#3 Change your perception. This voice is sad and lonely and you allowed it to grow. You fed it by listening to it complain, and made it stronger by agreeing with it, and now you’ve decided to be done with it. I MEAN WHO CARES!!! It’s not your real voice, so when you find your real voice, there won’t be room for it anyway, so it’s gotta go.

Next step???

Get a real clear picture of it the next time it starts talking shit, unload all that ammunition on it and don’t stop until you defeat it. –I’m not gonna lie, it’ll take time, and that motherfucker is gonna fight like hell, after all you have been letting it win its whole life. But remember what you are fighting for- the chance to be truly happy, to fucking win at this thing called life and to be able to help some other people who need you to lead them.

Welcome to freedom ladies, and getting fucking rich!

Xx Kiara